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How do I tell the guy I’m with that my PMDD Turns me Into a Psycho Bitch Every Month?

Every woman has had her crazy PMS moments.  If you’re anything like me, this red nightmare every month takes a serious toll both mentally and physically. I have a severe form of PMS called PMDD, Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder.  Imagine having PMS times 100. For normal women they may get a little bloating, some cramping, and may even feel lethargic. I on the other hand get extreme anxiety, wild mood swings, debilitating migraines, extreme fatigue, hot flashes, severe back cramping, chronic nausea, and insomnia for two weeks out of every month. That’s not even including the moments I spend in bed days at a time during my actual hell week. With so much going on in me hormonally every month, it’s kind of hard not to let what’s happening inside not affect what’s happening on the outside.My relationships in particular have been affected by my PMDD. Sometimes, I can feel so sucky that I am very irritable and impatient with my loved ones. Other times, I don’t even want to be around anyone ye…
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Ghosting ~ the Disappearance Act in Relationships and its Effects ~

Let’s talk about ghosting and how seriously fucked up it is.  For anyone who doesn’t know by now ghosting is when you were dating or talking to someone on a daily basis, and communicating regularly to then suddenly without cause of explanation cut off all ties to that person.  That person no longer responds to texts, they do not call you back, and they may have even cut you off of all social media without warning.  Here you are thinking everything is okay and then poof this person has disappeared off the face of this earth.  You’re left wondering what the hell happened. “Did this person who acted like they were my friend and cared for me literally just go ghost on me?” 
You feel rejected, you feel duped as though this person tricked you into thinking they actually cared for you- if not as a friend at least as a decent human being. You feel clueless and go over every conversation you had and everything you ever did to make that person just up and disappear. You have so many questions as…

My Relationship Revelation (Trigger Warning)

For the longest I have tried to figure out why I had made some really poor decisions when it came to love and dating.  I know we are all human and we all make mistakes, but in looking at my past, I have seemed to pick men who have been abusive whether it was physical, verbal, or psychological. I have had quite the few unhealthy relationships which fed into poor self-esteem, fear of rejection, and an overall sense that men pretty much just suck as an entire whole. I couldn’t figure out why I just can’t get love right when I have a father in my life that always showed me how a man is supposed to treat a woman.  He helped raise me and he has been married to my mom for at least 30 plus years now. My parents have always been a role model of love for me. While I have always tried to obtain what my parents have in a relationship and while I have failed miserably at it, I had to take a deeper look into what exactly has steered me wrong along the way. What has influenced me so negatively in th…

Long Distance Relationships - Online

Long distance relationships and I have a love hate thing going on. I almost feel as though we are on Dancing with the Stars dancing to a romantic Foxtrot one minute and then it turns into an I hate you but I can’t get away from you sexy Tango the next minute.  For some reason I always tend to find myself in a long distance relationship. I don’t know if God has willed that in my life or if I am seriously really not interested in anyone in my entire city yet alone state.  I tend to magically find my relationships online because well, I don’t go out! I mean I don’t go to clubs and I don’t go to bars so I am not really into the drinking scene per say. I am just a regular woman who dreams of traveling, loves writing, and literally wants to explore the world on a bigger level. I don’t seem to relate well to men who don’t exactly dream as big as I do in that way I suppose but I digress.  When I do find someone who piques my interest they are normally states away and then our long distance da…

My Revenge On Hurricane Irma!

This hurricane season has no doubt been utterly crazy and is very reminiscent of the 2004 hurricane year where we had hurricanes Charley, Jean, and Francis blow through Florida one after the other. That was literally the year of the hurricane where I learned all too well what flooding and power outages did. Charley left my apartment complex with no power for a week, sewage on the grounds, mold in the apartment, and flooding everywhere. The following hurricanes only made matters worse that year. 
This year with hurricane Harvey hitting Texas and then Irma hitting Florida, followed by the many storms that are currently floating around out there, Jose, Lee, and Maria it’s hard to feel as though we cannot catch a break this hurricane season. We have been inundated with harsh winds, outstanding flooding, long power outages, lack of water, damages in the millions, and recovery processes that seem to be never ending. This was the first time my family and I ever evacuated for a hurricane.  We…

PCOS Awareness Month

As some people may know, September seems to be national awareness everything month. Sicknesses from Sickle Cell Awareness to National Childhood Cancer Awareness are acknowledged during this month.  September is also PCOS Awareness month and for women such as me, it’s very important to get the word out about this women’s disorder that affects millions.  For those not familiar with the term, Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome, (PCOS) “is a health problem that affects one in 10 women of childbearing age. Women with PCOS have a hormonal imbalance and metabolism problems that may affect their overall health and appearance. PCOS is also a common and treatable cause of infertility” (www.womenshealth.gov). Now if you ask me, PCOS is basically a cluster fuck of physical and emotional symptoms that can negatively affect women hormonally, physically, mentally, and downright spiritually. How some of us manage to get through our everyday lives with the many things we have to experience dealing with PCOS …

My Love Languages

I was under the wrong impression that all of these years I always thought my top love languages were quality time and physical touch. I love spending quality time with the people I love and I consider myself  very touchy feely affectionate type of person, but sometimes I really enjoy my alone time and I would rather be left alone.  That could explain why I would rather hear how much a person loves me through words of affirmation and unsolicited compliments.  I really am a sucker for a compliment ... I giggle like a little girl and I am pretty sure I turn a little pink and smile like I am the only woman in the world. Words for me can go a long way however I do have to see those actions to back up those words.
That could be why my second love language is acts of service.  When someone truly goes out of their way to show me they love me by relieving me of something they know I dislike doing or by simply running an errand for me it makes me feel like they must simply adore me like n…